Saturday, July 23, 2011


I have just finished filling out my fifth application for an Instructional Aide position at a public school near my home town.

Now if I would have read the previous sentence a year ago I wouldn’t have thought it was in my future. I had no desire to teach. As an English major a lot of people would ask me if I was going to teach. I would always quickly answer them with “No. My minor is in Business I’ll probably do something with that.” Teaching, as a career, just never appealed to me.

After graduating in May I realized I really didn’t have a goal or a dream. So I began to pray that God would give me goals and dreams. I tried to ignore the one dream I’ve always had, to get married and have a family. It is obviously not time for that so I know I need something new to focus on, something that I can get excited about. So God has planted a new dream and goal in my heart and amazingly it is to teach.

A lot has pointed to this direction lately. I ended up with a summer job assisting a teacher at the church I have worked at for 3 years. We ended up with a great group of kids and I’ve really learned a lot. I feel more confident then any year I’ve worked there and was able to help plan activities and decorate our room. Though kids can be frustrating sometimes it is the times when they are sweet and are excited about learning that are most memorable.

God will give you new dreams and goals if you ask Him. Now I’m just praying that He will fulfill my desires. I’m holding on to Psalm 37:4:

“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

Saturday, July 16, 2011

"Take captive every thought"

This post is based off of a journal entry I wrote on June 7, 2011.

It has been a long time since I have written and a long time since I've really dug into God's word and prayed wholeheartedly. Thankfully, Isaiah 26 appeared on my calendar of verses for today. It has spoken to me and I understand now why I've been in such a terrible mood. This verse sums it up...
"You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you."
Isaiah 26:3

Next to this verse, in my Bible's margins, I have referenced the following verse...
"We demolish arguments and every pretension
that sets itself up against the knowledge of God,
and we take captive every thought
to make it obedient to Christ."
2 Corinthians 10:5

I am realizing that I am not experiencing God's peace because I haven't taken every thought captive and I know that my mind is not steadfast on Him. I looked up what steadfast means and there were three definitions that caught my attention.
1) fixed in direction; steadily directed.
2) firm in purpose.
3) unwavering, as resolution, faith, adherence etc.

I pray these verses will bring a change in me soon as I make myself get back into God's word and seek His direction for my future.

Father, I need your help to make my mind fixed in your direction (steadfast).
I want to know the peace only you can give.
Help me take every thought captive and make them obedient to you.